Happy Birthday Kenny!

Today would have been my son's 20th birthday. If you would have asked me a couple of years ago how I would have spent this day I would have told you celebrating with Kenny. He would have awoken to the most beautiful sound of his mother singing Happy Birthday(OK, so it is beautiful only in my ears lol) to him. I am sure I would have had to cook his favorite meal and I would have seen him for about 5 minutes the entire day, as he would have wanted to spend this day with his friends and Jessica. Oh what I would give for that 5 minutes now. Just to hear him come in the door and say, mama I need some gas money. I am sure he is up somewhere, hitting all the people he was not able to hit while he was here on earth. Kens mom, Daddy, my mom, and Grammy I can see it now, he is spending the day fishing with Michael and having a grand time. While we are left here on earth with a HUGE hole in our hearts, as Kenny was such a loving young man, and would give you the shirt off his back if you asked. (it may cost you some gas money, but he would have given it to you if you needed it) Funny how life works, the things we think will happen don't and the things we think will never happen sometimes do. Guess that just goes to show that we are not in control. So we move on with our lives and plan on the day we will meet Kenny again, to give him the biggest hug, and I can make up for all the birthdays I will have missed. But for today, I am down and out. I try not to be, but I can not help but be sad, you see I miss my son, and a part of me died the day he did. However, I will continue on, and I will make each day count, as we are not promised tomorrow. I shall put one foot in front of the other, no matter how bad it hurts. Happy Birthday Kenny!!! I love you. Love mom