It's been a long time

I find myself laughing at how long it has been since I was last on here. When I first started doing this, I told myself that I would try and at least put something on here once a week. Well, life happens I guess. And like so many things in our life, before you know it, time has passed and your sitting back going I wished I would have done that more, or I meant to do that. Now don't get me wrong, there are some regrets in my life, but none that has not shaped my character. I have listed a few below.

Regret No.1
I wished I would have finished school
No. 2
I wished I would have stayed at the hospital the day my daddy died
No.3
I wished I would have kept her.
No. 4
I wished I would have came home early and seen Kenny before he left that last time.
No. 5
I wished I would have just walked away


I don't dwell on the above things much, unless of course I am in a really down mood, and then ole satan sneaks in and trys to trick me in believing that I am a goof up and how could anyone love me after all I have done. But in the rambling of satan, is the ever so whisper of God that tells me I love you, I have made you in my image, and I am proud of you. I will take what the world has meant for evil and I will make good of it.

It is then, I realize that today is a new day, and I need to live everyday to the best of my ability, to love more, laugh more, and even cry more. Today, I will complete only the task of today, with no regrets!

Golf Tourney is a comming!!!

Well, it is almost that time again. The second annual Kenny Wolfe Scholarship Golf Tournament. This year it will be once again at Charwood Country Club. However, we will do things a little different. I did not like the raffle thing so we are going to have a silent auction this year, so BRING YOUR CHECKBOOKS!!!

It is cool to know that we are doing something in honor of Kenny. He is missed so much and I can not help but wonder if he were still here, with the growing trend of golf, and the fact that His Dad, brother, sister and yes, you got it his mom is playing. Not to mention Jason and Carl and Katie and Jenn. I wonder if he would have picked the game up. I am sure he would have, an unlike myself, he was such a natural at sports, any sports. So I guess with that being said, I believe ole Kenny Ray Wolfe Jr, Kyzer would have loved the game.

It is hard to believe that he has been gone 2 years. I keep telling myself that he is just gone to NC and spending time with Anita, but as time marches on as it has a tendency to do. Kenny is still gone. He would have been 21 this year for his birthday, wow, my baby 21 :).

So, enough of that, starting to shed a few tears here. This blog is not about the tears, this one is about the tournament. And if your reading this and love the game of Golf, I hope you would join us. If you need information, just let me know and I will hook you up.

As my husband always said "A bad day at golf, if better than any day at work". You know I think he may be onto something. Kenny, this one is for you and May God bless this day, and may we keep you alive in our hearts, because we know your in heaven smiling down and I hope your proud son. Proud to know that so many people cared for you and they will come out and support this tournament.

See you all on May 22nd!!!!

Things that make me go OH MY!

As I sit here at my desk, and see some of the people that come into a Law firm and think they could actually win a case, it reminds me of other things that make me go Oh MY! For example:

1. Really LARGE women in Really LITTLE swimsuits.
2. 85 year old women and Men who think they can still drive.
3. People's work ethics (the fact that they have none)
4. The color of the head on this bird outside my office window (BEAUTIFUL)
5. How you really thought you could leave my child stranded and get away with it (uh NO)
6. ex-wives
7. Looking outside at a beautiful Day and still not believe in a God!
8. Email Forwards that people send me that they believe they really work...
9. How broke my heart is :(
10. How much my sisters and I look alike (ok maybe not Nikki and Bobbie,,,,whos your daddy?)
11. How much I owe in taxes (wow)
12. people in Wal-mart late at night and what they have on. Did you really come out of the house like that?
13. Me working for an Attorney.....Who would have thunk it :)

and the list could go on and on, but for now, I do have to get back to work, another Blog for another day!

The wedding is coming!

So here we are getting ready to marry off my youngest daughter and every time I look at her I see the little girl in the picture. The one where she was probably plotting to have Kenny left behind at the park. I mean come on, this was the same child that for about a year, maybe two, had Kenny thinking that he was adopted. So looking at them this is what I see. I think it is because I am a mom and this is the age your children need you. Oh I know, they will always need you (no matter what they say) but not like when they are this age. Ashley is probably 2 and Kenny is maybe a year old. They are in the smurf houses at Carowinds, and of course Kenny has to check out the stools to make sure you can sit on them. Ashley came and got the rest of her clothes from the house last night and I wonder if they ever stop and think what is does to the parents hearts when they grow up and move out. Now, I know it has to be done, she will grow up and move on. I am just wondering if they think about it. I wonder if they think about the way they talk to us, or blow us off because we may not be cool, or don't do the same things they want to do. I guess that is part of parenting, and when you have Kids, Ashley you will have a little Kenny, (just because). But always remember, THIS is the way I remember you, both of you. Always my babies.......

My Small Group

Let me tell you about my small group. They have to be the best in the world. (ok to me they are). I can not tell you what it has meant to me and Ken to have a group of people that we can just call on when we need them and they are there, no questions asked. We even have our own theme song..and no it is not friends in low places (lol). Actually it is by Tracy Lawrence. "find out who your friends are". The chorus of the song goes like this....

you find out who your friends are
Somebody's gonna drop everything
Run out and crank up their car
Hit the gas, get there fast
Never stop to think 'whats in it for me? or 'it's way too far'
They just show on up with their big old heart
You find out who your friends are

and then one verse is...
When the water's high
When the weather's not so fair
When the well runs dry
Who's gonna be there?

Well, let me tell you, I know who will be there and it consist of Sheila, Lana, Nicole, Charlie, Jeanine, Chrissy, Leslie, Joey just to mention a few. These guys are there and ask no questions all I have to do is feed them (hahah)
Seriously though Ken and I are very thankful that God has placed people in our lives to Walk through this life together and have people we call "friends". They are truly our friends and if you don't believe me? come visit my small group one Sunday and if your willing to go that extra mile when needed and you are looking for a few good friends, well then you might just find them there. Sitting there in the corner of the couch, or running after one of the kids and sneaking a kiss under the cheek, or maybe one will be in the kitchen getting that last brownie. But you will find them and once you do you will have a friend for life. Hope to see you there....

10 Lesson learned

I have been married to the same man for almost 22 years now and in that 22 years, I do consider myself a professional (lol) so what have I learned in the 22 years of marriage? well, funny you asked. I have complied a list of the lessons learned.

1. Always put God first. No matter what.
2. Tell your husband everything.
3. Just in case your espn is not working, you need to communicate with hubby, guess what he can not read your mind, no matter how bad you want him to.
4. find a way to release anger. Personally moving furniture is my fav, it not only gets your house really clean, but allows you to take it out on a couch instead of his head.
5. Watch a game or sports show with him, he will think your the greatest thing since slice bread.
6 Let him know you need him, (even if you can do it by yourself, makes him feel better).
7. Talk about everything and get his opinion even if you don't like it.
8. Be honest about your feelings.
9. Let him hold you when you are upset or sad.
and No 10. Always stand by your man. Tammy Wynette had something there.

Now, don't get me wrong, there are days I want to take him and well, I will keep that to myself, but you know where I am going. Marriage is like a job, you have to work at it and you have to give 110% but in the end, hopefully you will have a wonderful person to spend the life on Earth with, and if your one of the lucky ones to have children from this man, you will enjoy watching them grow up and then can pass your wisdom onto them( now if they listen that is an entirely new blog) And if by some chance, like Ken and I we had the short lived life of a child that God took home and during that time we were able to draw strength from that and depend on each other and God and realized that with each other we can get through anything.

My Children

OK, so here goes the proud parent in me. Let me start with Ashley. She is the youngest. Ashley pretty much tells you like it is, she works two jobs and is just enjoying life. I was talking with her the other day and it is amazing how she is growing up so fast and becoming her own woman. Now, don't get me wrong, there are things I wish she would do differently, but for the most part she takes life as it comes and deals with it the way she knows how. Besides, who listens to mom anyway? She has over come many hurddles in her life and she is doing an Awesome job, there is one she is working on now and she is not just thinking of herself while she is moving forward. Ash, I am very proud of you and love you very much!

Then lets move to Kenny, ok so if you knew Kenny I don't need to say anything further, he was very precious to us and we miss him dearly.

Heather is the next in line. She is an OT in NC and is allot like Ashley they are so much alike it is scary. Heather is looking for her first home and let me tell you I will have to let you know on the progress of that next year, as it will take her that long to find one. (she is a little picky). I wish she lived closer. Heather is easy to talk to and just has a passion for working with disabled children.

Derik is last but certainly not least. Derik and his wife Amber also live in NC. Derik was not raised with the other kids. But that never stopped the love we have for him and now his wife. It is a tough job to be a step-parent there are certain lines that you don't cross all the while making it fair for the other kids in the family. Derik and Amber are now an active part of our family and it is an adjustment, A very good adjustment. I just wish we would have been able to do this while Kenny was alive, but through his death we have been reminded that Family is important, and you may not have tomorrow to let someone know how you feel.

Now don't get me wrong, I have made some mistakes with all my children, and I am sure I am not done. But for a new year, I pledge to my children and their families to be here when you need me, to pray for you daily and to make sure that WHEN and IF we ever have grand kids to spoil them rotten :)

God, Please keep a close watch on my children and their families, may your comfort and guidance always be present and may you bless them.

I LOVE YOU GUYS~~~ mom